the last day for her to stay...

Today's my last day to see my grandma... i talk to her at her coffin... i told her i promised her to get top in school... then later my cousin came over to me... she said if you have anything to say out from my heart to my grandma this was my last chance... so i told her how much i hate to see her go and how much i love her... i told her if she had a chance please come back and visit me... i just want to see her... if not i told her come into my dreams and talk to me and tell me how she feels... i'm so sad... then when is the time to cover her coffin... i cried so badly... cos i can't bear to see her go... then after that they undertakers told us to turn around cos we're not allow to see it's bad luck to us... then i cried again... this time she's already in the van... later we went to guang ming shan miao... then we went in... a flash of mind i saw my grandpa funeral... then i saw my grandma... after prayers everything done... she's going to be pushed in to the 'hot oven' then this is the time i wanted to run up to her and hug her... but i can't they're preparng to be pushed in it... so when it's time to be pushed... i called out to her the top of my voice... i want to let her know that i'm there and i miss her... it's so painful... i can't express it out... cos it's really painful to me... i don't want the future to be like that!!! I HATE IT!!!